I still have too many negative feelings, just a dark black feeling of anger and a desire to see you suffer, because now I know who you are and I have the pain of having to save the memories of a lifetime together since crap the last few years. You've ruined everything. Everything. Nothing is as I thought, and I am different from the person you've known from the beginning and that you knew in the end. You've killed her. I'm a monster, now I'm a monster. And I hate you, I hate you from the deeper part of my heart for this, I hate you and I will hate you forever for giving away my essence. When will it take me to have peace, when? when?